Here I Go Again

Wat a bad unlucky Fridae!!!!Im so pissed off rite now!!!Man,can diz shyt things dat keep happening to me,ended?????!!!Why me???Why me????Stupid punya kedai!!!!We'll see bha,i wish dea punya kedai nda laku and bankrupt cepat2..Haha,rasa'in lho!!!!So wat if her shop was big and look a lil bit glamour????Really2 got no manners punya orang!!!And damn,the biatch yg me nda ngam pun kerja sana!!!And i was lyk: 'H.A.H.A wat a small world!!!'...

Luv At First Sight

First,i want to admit dat im a Polyvore-holic!!!Haha,itz lyk a 'drug' but it wasnt juz an ordinary 'drug',it was a 'Superb Drug',well datz wat i called it, a.k.a Polyvore,of coz *giggles*..Ok,since the dae i met,ehem *cough*,behold:Mr Superb Drug,LOL,me terus fall in luv diz,before diz,i never believed the old saying --love at first sight--..But now,i know it was true!!!Well,juz in diz polyvore thingy lar,but if were gonna talk about love relationship,im still not believe in --love at first sight---..;p

Reasons i fall in luv at first sight wif Mr Superb Drug a.k.a Polyvore:

• It'll owez fulfill my shopping list fantasy,i mean u can even 'buy' all those luxury branded,such as Gucci's,Balenciaga's,Top Shop's,Chanelle's,Prada's,and sooooo much more wifout even PAY for it,itz free hun!!!!!
• I can show off *winks* my styles,i know everybody does,well who wasnt,rite???

And,juz now i was playing with Polyvore and create a set on wat im gonna wear for diz xmas,yeap,dun be surprised tho' if it was too simple or too casual,coz dat was wat im planning for xmas diz year: SIMPLICITY...and JIMAT CERMAT as the fuel prices naik lagi lorr *sigh*...Hehe,but wat matter is 'How U wear it' NOT 'What U wear'..An outfit cost RM 50 can look RM 200,if the wearer know how to wear it and same goes to an outfit cost RM 200 can look RM 50,if the wearer is a 'fashion-blind' a.k.a 'fashion victim'..No offence,but i often saw those people dat trying so hard wif fashion but end up looking like a granny,monster or even look like a xmas tree...
Okay okay,and diz is the set dat i juz created,and for more,u can juz visit my Polyvore's site,by clicking the Polyvore's badge on my side bar!!!CLICK CLICK CLICK!!!





If u have any comments,juz drop some,i promise i wont bite U,hehe...

I Heart Shopping

Ok,i've been busy lately and forgot to do my 'bla-bla-ing' here,but no worry, coz im back now!!!Yippee!!!The crazy-loud gurl is back!!!Beware u people!!!LOL..And she's going to 'create more sarcastic stories 4 u' *giggles*..
But to tell u the truth,wat 'type of busy' im in,as i mentioned before,wasnt involve something lyk job's thingy or watever related to WORK WORK WORK(wait a minute,isnt dat the same,job n work???!!! *giggles*,silly me),but it was somethings dat i called VACATION,more to "MENTALLY AND SPIRITUALLY VACATION"..Yeap,if u realised,and have read my laz post before,when im being all emo,lost hope and heart broken,i then decided and told maself 'Hey U!!!Take a break,will ya!!!I know there's so much dat u've been thru all of diz tym,but diz is life,no matter how hard u tried to avoid all diz shyt stuff,it'll owez come to U,and from it u will learnt something and datz wat make u stronger..U have the right to cry or to worried,but NEVER EVER GIVE UP!!!'

Haha,ok,nuff' said..While im on my MENTALLY AND SPIRITUALLY VACATION, to pujuk my 'emo-mind' *giggles*,i tried to think something else, i mean not the -suicide or cut the wrist thingy- as wat the REAL EMO's hobbies are,no offence tho' *winks*,im thinking about MY XMAS LIST instead,haha,the whole budget:wat im gonna buy,wat im gonna wear,where im gonna buy all those stuff,wat colour is my theme for diz year n bla bla bla..Well,wat more can i say,girls will owez be girls..Hold on!!!Ok,i know u guys was laughing at me and still laugh,rite??thinking,how crazy is diz gurl and wat harm can she cause..Dun worry,im still on my sane state,hehe..Itz juz dat im over excited,i repeat,o.v.e.r. e.x.c.i.t.e.d----when it comes to shopping and XMAS!!!!!I heart shopping!! I heart xmas!!!!And yeah,u guys also better organised ur xmas list NOW!!A.S.A.P!!!Coz u never wanna do the laz minute shopping,where u'll saw crowds a.k.a shoppers dat u have to fight wif,over diz gorgeous dresses dat caught ur and their's eyes..And wat happen next???!!!U'll have to say bye-bye to Miss Gorgeous Dress!!!!



Ok,im gonna put my own xmas and new year's countdown beside the bed now *winks*...Come on guys!!Five or six months left before the GRAND DAY arrived,besides itz ok wat,Xmas spirit,y'all!!!

Beautiful Mess Inside

Is diz so-called update???The bla-bla-ing dat im gonna poured out here???!!!I dunno,everything seems pointless and im feeling numb rite now..Have u ever been felt dat everything is too far, far away for ur reach,datz not even one thing u wish,u hope to happen,do come true???I used to make fun of those emos,tot dey were silly wif their 'so so emotionally' feelings over something dat we so-called L.I.F.E..But here i am,being all emos for the same reasons..
Talking how unfair diz world were,well,it is and will owez be...There's a day when i felt such a strong,tough gal,dat will and owez can overcome the obstacles in front of me and at the end of the day,i would scream my victory,but there's many days,many times dat i would felt how idiot i am,wat a failure i am,how silly i was to fight for wat i believe was the right thing,all by maself..
Im tired and i really2 mean it..Im tired wif everyone,those around me,im tired wif everything..I hate to admit diz,but im sick to pretend datz nothing happen,im sick to pretend dat 'it'll be ok', 'it'll all get better in time'..I hate to do those things but i juz have to..I've been trying to stop pretending all diz tym,but i cant,and itz like a disease i cannot cured..Past is past, and it hurt me so much but yet im still living in it..I tried to run away many times,but i'll end up keep coming back to the past after half-way..Dun tell me dat your life isnt about pretending too coz u might not realised about it dat urs actually is all or half about PRETENDING also..Take a deep breath and u will see and understand wat im talking about...
To take care of other people's feelings,we would lie and not tell dem the truth..To proved to everyone dat there's no need to worry about,we decided to kept all the worries to ourselves instead..To showed everyone dat u're a strong,tough gal,u'll owez smile and laugh and wouldnt ever show ur tears in front of dem...Im dat type of person,itz not easy for me to show my feelings in front of those people and i never trust dem coz i never dare to...
Call me silly,call me stupid,call me stubborn????Go on, im used to called maself dat since i learnt wat life is...If only i can be free,like those eagles,fly to the sky,peacefully...

Song of the day

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye..

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

Attention!!!Watch Out Ur Drinks!!!

I've been you-tubing and bump into diz video,a gud guides for us,the ladies!!!The world now,is not safety as it seems and there are many people wif wrong intentions 'crawling,creeping,hunting itz prey' out there *goosebumps*...Diz video shows how does it take for 'those bad persons' to 'manipulate' ur drinks..Careful gals!!!Diz could happen anywhere,anytime,whether at a dinner table,a party or ur gals nyte out at a nyteclub...Eventho' u have ur friends to watch out ur drinks while u left,it wouldnt be 100% safety i say, coz they're out to have fun too,not to babysit ur drinks,so dey might not really 'take a gud care of it'...



So ladies,no matter 'how bored it was,to click the play button,watching it over again n again', remind urself diz: Itz for ur own gud,all the bad person out there can be very,very tricky..

Attention Dear Fashionista!!!!

Dior or in itz full name "Christian Dior" had juz released their first ever LUXURY mobile phone,dat we oredy aware will cost thousand dollars!!!!I guess it was only made specially to those Rich N Famous or maybe juz RICH(as long as dey have enough money,of coz),LOL...My comments about d phone,only in 3 words---hot,hawt n haute---
Ok,The Christian Dior phone comes in a clamshell form..ya ya,i know,i'll put the *gorgeous* phone's picture here too,but i juz cant help but to bla-bla-ing about the details,haha..Oh dear,and after several google-ing,i found out dat the phone prices will be sumwhere between $3,500 and $5,000(2,230 and 3,190 euros)..Alert!!!Alert!!!OMG!!!Can u imagine dat big NUMBER???And imagine the prices again,but diz tym in Malaysian Currency????*open big mouth*,pheww!!!!Expensive but Worth=Insanity..Dat watz happen when were talkin' bout labels and fashions!!!!

OMG!!!!

OMG!!!!OMG!!!!I really cant believe wat i saw n heard juz now..What seems normal from the outside is not the REAL TRUTH..Now i know,dat the truth is really out there,if u r meant to found it,u'll actually found it at the rite time...Some people trying harder to find the truth and will do anything to succeed,but if itz not meant to be,den it wouldnt happen,the truth will be kept SECRET,away,far away from u...Todae,yeap,rite now,i was shocked after bump into my ex-clasmate's blogs..Well,at first,my 'shocked' was about ---haha,my old friend,my old clasmates,found her at laz,here at blogger---..but den,my 'shocked' turned into 'an unbelievable shocked' after reading all her posts..Man,she's different now..really really different..not physically but mentally and morality..I wont say tho' wat is really "THE TRUTH" dat i juz found out..I didnt have intention to spread "THE TRUTH" and i hope i'll never spread it,ever..But hey,im juz a human,a gurl who talks 2 much n i dunno til' when i can keep "THE TRUTH" to maself..Juz now pun,im oredy tot,who is the first person dat im gonna tell,will it gonna be our ex-clasmates also????But den i tot again,how am i supposed 2 say it???Should i juz say 'Hey guys!!!U know wat,she's a........... now!!!!!'
But again,im not dat mean,and i cant imagine tho' wat will their react to "THE TRUTH" coz dey are her best friend while im juz her friend..Sure,dey will feel 'bigger impact' compared to me..No wonder, before diz,while hang out wif my friends(including her ex-boifren,lets juz called him Z,ok the name sounds too typical n plain *change*,alrity den,let juz called him Mike)..Mike was talkin' and talkin but when her ex-gurlfren's name was mentioned,he suddenly stop talking and his expression was lyk -empty-..At dat tym,im not sure why was his expression is lyk dat,but now,i know the answer oredy..Looks like,only him n me dat know "THE TRUTH", for now..
Poor she...In luv but in a wrong way!!!Datz why, diz famous luv's belief do exist,rite???!!!
Coz when u're in luv,there's no such things as right and wrong,and if it does,u wouldnt give a damn care about it tho'...But in diz case,'her case' actually,is different,she's so much better than everyone,she's got everything n amongst of us,she was considered the lucky ones(Itz all about MONEY MONEY MONEY,dear!!!), but she chose the wrong way..I wonder if her family know bout it oredy...

Should I Or Should Not???!!!!

Itz June oredy,okay,lets count will ya *finger counting*...Alrity den,so itz been 5 days since i laz blogging..hehe..Gosh,not even one week had passed but itz feel like weeks since i laz blogging a.k.a telling crap *silly me* *giggles*...Well,not much had happened tho' diz few days..Me suddenly missed all those dramas(dat i want 2 avoid)..haha,look like NO DRAMAS=BOREDOM...
But now, im hella confused whether "Should I OR Should Not???!!!"..I juz HATE HATE HATE making decision coz im really not good at it..Ya,i know im a coward,im a chicken!!!U can called me dat,i wont blame u..But i learnt from experienced and most of dem is a bad one and datz why IM OWEZ TRYING HARDER TO NOT FALL INTO THE HAND OF THE STEWWFYYDD FATE A.K.A MR.WRONG DECISIONS....Even one simple decisions,i have to take a few days to make up my mind(if i 'have a few days') and if i dun 'have a few days'?????Gud question..My answer is, i'll chose 'the nice-sounded-decision'(tot dat was the safest,huh?!) and if it coz me no-gud,i will whether RUNAWAY from MR PROBLEMO or REGRET 4 My whole life(which means,im gonna blame maself again n again n again)..Aaaaargghhhh!!!!!!!!!!Sumone save me,before i turned into Miss Crazeee!!!! *sigh*..I guess wat supposed 2 be "Funfair" will be juz another "Unfair"..Geez,Wat a life....



Past is past,Future is way too far,Present is Nuff' Said..So, wat i need now is a 'gud, healthy water' to refresh my mind again *winks*...